Some Days

Some days are tough. You question everything, you doubt everything, and you fear everything.

Some days you just can’t fathom why things are the way they are and you don’t even know if things will get better.

Some days you lose hope, you lose hope in yourself, you lose hope in what you were once certain of, and you lose hope in what you were looking forward to.

Some days you just break down and cry, some emotions are too heavy for words to carry, some things hurt so much you bleed in tears, so you let the tears fall like rain.

Some days you feel like your mind is about to explode, you know what the word of God says but it seems like it’s for others and not you, the advice you give people applies to them but not you, the prayers you pray for people, you can’t pray for yourself.

Some days you wish you could see the future, maybe you will be more relaxed, maybe you won’t have days like this, maybe there will be no need to write this.

Some days you wish you had all the answers. You wish God will chat you up and tell you everything you need to know.

On days like this you don’t get the exact answers you seek, but you do get something called ASSURANCE: He knows, and a nudge that is called TRUST:He will bring it to pass.

It is not going to be easy, but it will always be the right thing to do, and the first step is to take it one day at a time knowing He is with us and never leaving us, whether we feel it or not.

So we pray for grace to trust Him more. We won’t always have life figured out, but we can trust Him who has life in His hands, trust that He knows more than us, trust that He knows what is good for us, trust that He will direct us, trust that every good and perfect gift comes from Him, trust that He has a time for everything…

And if we get weary, or the cares of life causes us to make a detour, we can at any point always run to the throne of grace, for strength, for grace, for encouragement, for rest, for a reminder….

”I have never had clarity; what I have always had is trust”. Mother Teresa

‘Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,

Just to take Him at His Word

Just to rest upon His promise,

Just to know, “Thus saith the Lord!”………

OneWord

Happy new year people. And I’m sure its back to work/school for most of us. (Some of us are back to doing nothing. Sigh). Anyways, I was browsing through bible plans on my You version bible application and i stumbled on this devotional plan – one word.

  The idea of one word is focusing on one word, to guide us all through the year. Instead of resolutions, or a long list of things to do or not to do, its teaches about sticking to one word, not a sentence just a word. Of course you would have to prayerfully seek for the word.

To learn more please visit www.getoneword.com

Stay Blessed.

Victory

Its been awhile since I have been here, its been a tough couple of months, and it’s really hard to put your thoughts into words especially when that is the last thing you want to do.

One of my days of ‘lamenting’ to Him while i was in prayer meeting,I said ‘i don’t even have anything good to write about’ all i have been doing is praying, crying, praising, believing in You for a miracle’ and He said(it came like a thought) WHY DON’T YOU WRITE ABOUT THAT.

So here I am to talk about my journey so far. We all know that life isn’t a bed of roses, but some of us believe in God, and that He is able to cause us to triumph in every situation. However it can be painful sometimes when you pray and pray and things don’t seem to be getting any better, trust me the period of waiting is the true test of faith…

Now i understand so much about faith that no book can teach me because I’m learning on the go. Faith and patience work together, when you read about Abraham and his unwavering faith, don’t take it for granted,faith is not a joking sturvs lol. I also understand that faith in God encompasses faith in His timing…. I believe God will give me what I need but I also need to believe that He is never late, the time He will do it is the perfect time, because I know God is faithful, He is reliable I have to trust Him absolutely.

So while I’m yet to possess what I need in the physical, i know and believe that God is for me, His thought towards me are of good and not of evil, i confess the word daily and I WAIT.

Waiting does not mean we don’t do anything, in fact waiting itself requires us to sow the seed of the word every day. We continually seek the face of God in prayers, sing songs that remind us of the powerful and mighty God we serve. Even in waiting I understand the need to have unwavering faith, and that doesn’t come cheap.

I understand that victory lies in speaking what God is saying irrespective of the challenges I see.

And the joy of waiting on God is that daily He renews my strength. Isaiah 40:31… So even if the situation looks the same, as long as I’m anchored on God and His word, I have strength to keep on pressing and believing. Sometimes things happen immediately, other times it takes awhile.

So be it admission, future partner, exam success, an unfinished project, a baby or babies. We serve a God who never fails, our hope is not dashed because our waiting won’t be in vain. Selah

A Time For Everything

There is a time for everything, some things don’t just happen just for the sake of happening.

A time to live
A time to have people around, a time to be alone.
A time to have fun and enjoy, a time to work hard and be sober.

A time to be born, a time to grow.

A time you have plenty, a time you have nothing.

A time to do what you want you want/like. A time you realise doing anything you like has its consequences, so you curb your excesses and learn discipline.

A time to be broken, a time to be healed.

A time to be the broken and a time to be the “mender”.
A time of pain and suffering, a time to rejoice and celebrate.

A time to die.

The thing about God is He always takes us through a process, we can’t take away or wish away this process. However, sometimes the duration of the process may depend on you. Remember the time you decide to wake up, is your morning.

…..” Making the most of every time because the days are evil.”  Every time counts, be it good or bad. Take time to pray for discernment and direction during anytime or season “of your life”.

Most importantly, remember He makes everything beautiful in its time. Every time has its own beauty, every time or season we go through doesn’t have to be ugly.

a time is a phase, it’s an event, it’s a process, a season, a moment, an opportunity.

…….Extracted from Ecclesiastes 3: 1-11, Ephesians 5:16

Letters

Dear Mary

How are you and how are things going?

Can you please not give me the cliché  ‘I’m fine’ response you give everyone. I want you to know its okay not to be fine, so tell me, how are you?

You claim to have moved on and let go of the past, but I perceive from your words that the past still hurts you, and in addition, your past now defines the present you. You have refrained from any form of interaction with anyone, you are always not in the mood for talk, going out, anything.

Yes I know he hurt you, he made promises and he broke them, I know you trusted him, you gave him your body, you bared your mind and soul, but he left you exposed. I know he broke you, he met you whole but when he left, the whole was shattered into pieces unrecognizable.

However, its been over a year, i know some wounds are deep and they take long to get healed. But you can’t keep holding on to the past, you can’t keep pushing everyone away, you can’t remain under, you need to breathe.

First I need you to understand that everything that happened wasn’t your fault, I know that you blame yourself for trusting him, for being vulnerable, but love makes us do these things, you can’t blame yourself for falling in love, and trusting him.It’s not your fault that he left, it was his decision.

Secondly, have you ever considered that maybe he is hurting too? He could have been confused and scared. I know the next question will be why didn’t he say so? Why did he have to walk away?. Mary, there is something about men and their ego, its their pride and sometimes they let it get into their head. He would rather have you hate him than accept that he couldn’t cope, couldn’t stand the ‘pressure’,  he was afraid of failing.

I am not justifying his actions, all I am saying is, he is flawed, he is human, he is not the superman he portrays to people.

Thirdly, Mary you need to forgive him, not for him but for yourself. I am not saying you should forget all that he did, but you need to forgive him so you can be free, let go of the bitterness,anger and hatred. It’s not worth it, if he couldn’t stay it means he wasn’t strong enough for you.

Mary, forgiveness doesn’t mean you start talking to him, far from it, you both need the distance.

Forgiving him and moving on doesn’t mean you jump into the arms of the next available man, it will only make you feel better momentarily.

Forgiveness is not instantaneous, it’s a process, take your time. Most importantly ask God for help, trust me He listens, ask him to heal you, strengthen you, to hold you, to help you in every way. Cry if you want to, shout if you want to. He cares about the sparrows, the trees, and everything around, how much more you, the apple of His eyes, the reason He sent His son to die. Let Him be your Lover.

I love you M, please stay in touch.