I feel like an underachiever
I don’t have much to my name
Everybody else got grind and game
All I have is regret and shame
I feel like I have no dream
Life and living is so hard they die or dim
When you are constantly wearied by adversity
You will do anything to escape reality
I feel like the weight of the world is on me
I pray but God seems busy with his own plans
The things I really want, I never get
Can’t celebrate the little success because it’s always short-lived.
I feel like a loser
Always the girl by the side and not by his side
Friend, side chick, secret lover are the locations I have been
And they always end up choosing another over me
I feel like I’m constantly on the ground
Swept to the side and I always ‘carry last’
To succeed at something I have to do it more than once
The things others get freely I have to fight for
It would feel really good to have something work for me
To have no worries, to thrive and flourish
To hope, to dream, to be complete, and to be fulfilled……
Believe me, I wrote this on a certain day this year. The feeling was so heavy in my heart I couldn’t shake it off. It took all the energy in me to talk to a friend and thank God I did.
One of the things he did was to pump words into me. Not flattery, or ‘whining’ but the true state of things. He brought to light the things I had working for me, even something as ludicrous as my Edo name lol. He told me to ‘count my blessings’ instead of crying over the things I don’t have.
After a long conversation, I felt better and I was able to pray.
I learnt a few things from this experience.
Life isn’t rosy for anyone, even the people we look at to measure ourselves have their own share of misfortunes. It’s not consolation its a fact. We all have struggles, and life is full of challenges.
Everyone has at least one good thing working for them, you just have to LEARN to FOCUS on that.
If you are a christian, you know that God is never not interested in us, or too busy for us. He loves us so much, any contrary feeling/thinking is a lie from the adversary.
We need like a truck load of faith, God kind of faith everyday, to receive and activate all what God has written concerning us. As Christians, we believe and confess even without seeing.
If someone tells you they are feeling a certain way, don’t start by just quoting scriptures and throwing it at them or telling them to ‘get over it’. Listen first, be positive and try to reassure them. When you notice a change in attitude, pray with them and subsequently give them the scriptures. Understand that while some people are ‘deep and spiritually up there’ some of us still struggle with some ‘basics’… This is a someone’s sub. Lol
If you don’t like a situation, do something positive about it if you can, if you can’t, trust God and let him help you deal with it, His own way and at His own time.
What else do you think can help anyone feeling this way? Please share your experience if you have ever been in this ‘phase’ and how you came out of it…